It's the time where you're flooded with wedding invitations, and heard of many engagement news. But you sat there alone, scrolling on things you should not be doing at this moment, not thinking about your future. Just you and yourself, not minding the stuff that bothers you deeper. And that 'you' is me.
Here and there, I saw pretty pictures of people getting married, read blogs about engagement ceremonies, receiving event invitations on Facebook and all. "Maybe it's time for me to start thinking and start looking?" I told myself but I still couldn't bring myself to open this heart to anyone. Not once. Truth is, I like someone so much I don't bother looking at other people around me. You ought to know how it feels to have this feeling - determine to set eyes but on that one lucky person.
It's true that mom and dad worry about me not having a boyfriend at this age. I ask you this - is it a crime being a single and want to do things I want to do while I'm single? Like, scrolling endlessly on tumblr without worry of not answering calls from a person, or even flailing over my favorite biases without having to explain why I have to do so. My point exactly.
Maybe now I'm having a confusing time describing my ideal soulmate, or myself for that matter, for I have doubts in every men existed. Or maybe now, I have a hostile levity in which I could not be myself in front of others. It could be anything. Just... don't push the idea of getting a boyfriend to me. Just keep that thought to yourself please? They said "It's time when it's time".
6 comments:
take ur time pao. it's time when it's time :D
LOL yeah I am, Bars. Worry not.
it's okay my dear. love will come to you. but just don't close the heart too tight, eh? susah nak bukak nanti, kene guna spanar. hihi
HEE. then i shall not close it too tight.
bukan apa, sometimes it becomes a doa. macam ckp taknak taknak, lama2 tak jumpa terus. aimi penah pesan, jgn rancang sgt,nanti bila mase yg ditunggu smpai, yang kita nak tu tak dapat2. if u know what i mean. just be open about it.
yeah. tahu. i didn't say taknak at all. just xnk rush into this matters. i'll leave it all to fate, though i know i ought to be open and make an effort about it. sometimes it just doesn't feel right. let it comes to me.
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