I don't feel it, yet.

When is the ideal age to get steady with a partner? To get involved in a serious relationship? Or even to get married? There is no single valid answer to this, I believe. It's what has been written up there. We can plan, oh, let say, I want to get married by 25. Heck, I'm already 24 and no sign of love making an entry to this frail heart, just yet. Or maybe it's just what I've planned for myself. And now I'm not feeling it. I don't think I'll be married by 25, though. I don't know. I don't feel it. 

I know, friends my age are talking about marriages, kids, and financial status bla bla bla. I feel too left behind in all these. And I certainly don't like the feeling of it. But that won't be the reason why I should rush myself and get me a boyfriend, right? 

I don't know why so suddenly I talked about this topic but this has gotten me thinking lately - WHY HAVE I NOT FELT THE PRESSURE YET? Why is everybody I know (friends, mostly) talks about these things - finding a boyfriend, future and more future. It's not like I don't want to be moved. Life moves and we'll be left behind if we don't follow. But I'm just curious. 

I think I know the answer (a bit) to my very interesting question (in my opinion) - that I am tired of starting anew. Both tired and afraid. Don't ask me why. There are works, mentally tiring works not to mention, to do before I can confirm I like someone, love someone or marrying someone. I just don't have the will to do all those now. Research works are more than enough to keep my head aches.