incomplete series of nightmares

i try to find things to write. or at least a pinch of a topic. i got none. N.O.N.E. and i ended up merapu and melayan blues sambil mendengar lagu-lagu lame yang menggamit kenangan bersame....bersame-same lah.

i had one thing on my mind right now. and it's quite bugging me. enough with my so called NOBLE series of nightmares - of me killing Mr. Ex. (yes, AGAIN. three times in two months) and i was flabbergasted when Athirah told me she had a nightmare too - of me being a murderer!! she ran away from me that very morning. she thought i was gonna kill her. gosh. am i that BAD? yeah maybe there's something left unspoken between me and Mr. Ex, but Athirah? i don't see any corelation di sini ye Tirs. it's redunkulus.

worst, Athirah told him about MY nightmare and then he knew it! *sigh* yeah yeah. i was planning to keep that from him but oh well, words are like virus. they go round and round infecting the others and they'll get back to you. so there's no use of keeping things from others.

then i had this pretty sweet dream. i'm sure this time is a dream. i was with this guy. i saw his face but it wasn't clear enough for me to recognize who he was. btw, he proposed me! aaawww~ sweetness. i like the proposal - under the apple tree, by the river that flows... ok crap. however... i DON'T like the ring he gave me tho. it was an ancient ring. like it's belong to some kind of old tribe or something. really. i don't like the look of it. it's weird. but i pray not to have a future husband from any kind of tribes that still exist in this holly complicated modern world. oh please. but if he's rich then it's OK for me. *bermata duitan sebentar* naahhh i was just kidding. i'm not a materialistic girl.

i was bored so i baked this:
maybe that does not look good but it tastes GREAT. heh i baked this for roommate yang bising nak cheesecake. so here!

this was before the tragedy.

someone broke the heart.

well, that's pretty much it. no gossips for today. just a glimpse of my...updates. whatEv. good luck for those yang ada exams or finals. and...

HAVE A GOOD BREAK!!

Meri Krismes.

♥ pao ♥