Courage to finally do it

Which one is worse - regret of doing something, or regret of not doing something?

Which one would you rather live with - the regret or the frustration?

Well, I rather not be in both situations. But yeah that, only God knows.

The thing is, to do something big, you need courage. And for somebody who doesn't think highly of herself (read: me), I don't find that easy. Courage doesn't come that easily in times you need them the most. Courage is gathered. It needs will to power yourself to gather them. It's like working, ya know. You earn something for doing something. Reward.

To do or not to do, is the big question here. Doing things means you are exposing yourself, or rather, you are putting yourself on the verge of life and death. Ok, no I'm exaggerating here obviously but you got my point.

The risks of doing something come in different sizes; and whether it's pleasant to you or not, that you have to figure it out yourself. But the risks are always there.

And of course, the fear for trying. Everyone has it in them, the fear. At least I do. Fear is what (sometimes) holds us back. I know.

I don't know what I'm trying to deliver but it's freakin 3 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. This bed, somehow, feels like it was made of rock!