unstable

gmox naudnirek syafrul!!

i blame the weather. for not being nice.
i blame the sunshine. for not smiling today.
i blame the wind. for blowing my happy feelings away.
but i don't blame Him the creator.

i hate when i become all curious.
i hate when i know the truth and it hurts me bad.
i hate when i am faking, pretending and hiding.
i hate when in the end i'm the one who suffers. the most.

as the matter of fact, with all the things that we've been through, i know that we, somehow, cannot be ordinary friends. i don't wanna make people to suddenly being interested in finding what am i thinking or whether i'm still not over ermmmmm, or if i still like aaaahhaaaa *nod*nod*, or whatever. well, love is a strong word for someone who was once made you smile, in the end made you cry, you know. omg it's such a bold statement. *cuak*cuak*

the answers would be very complicated. it would be a lie if i said i hate uhummmm and so so. i just...wanna be whoever i wanna be - laughing the hell out of me, doing things i shouldn't do, or even hating people i shouldn't hate. but for the record, short list.

in fact, i feel relieved after talking to her. told her everything. exchanged sad love stories and blablabla. shed urmmm...yeah. i need a smile. a warm smile. ooohhhh~ i'm so gonna go play rock-band. thats the only way.

God. i miss everybody.


♥ pao ♥