Moment of truth and piss

Sometimes, I think friends are just too much. They wanted to know everything about us. They MUST know everything about us. They NEED to know everything about us. Don't you think it's too much? In that sense, I'm doing exactly the same thing. I feel the need to know every little details about my friends. You know, learning things about someone is the most interesting lesson I've learned. Because well, of course, the first few meetings were all about 'impressions' you had on someone. But the afterwards, all the impressions you made on that person could be wrong, or it could be that you hit the jackpot if you're good enough. 

I have to be honest that my RIT friends are the best so far (experience wise). Though we had few fights and dramas along the line, it sure has made me realized that they're the kind that worth keeping and I shall treasure them. But no one has to agree with me. That's how I feel. Sometimes I feel like going backwards on time and experience those all over again. Or I wish things would've been much better. But if everything were as perfect as you'd want, there's no such thing as lesson you could learn in your friendship. I know I'm not making any sense here but that's my point - I MISS MY FRIENDS. 

I miss how we spent the weekends together at someone's house - anyone, -  sleepover for movies or little stupid so called parties or makan-makan or just an open table session, where everyone laid back, listened and talked. 

I miss how we'd gather at the library and eat something brought/made by my ex-roommate, who loved to cook (not anymore). Though the portion was small, but that was enough to make us content. 

I miss having friends who are as good as you guys. I'm being honest and I'm embarrassing myself. I rarely admit these things publicly. But something made me realized that I can no longer have that all back. I just can't. Everyone's going their way now. Careers, studies, personal matters and all. 

And my days in UPM had been lonely ones, as in, no awesome friends I could hang out with! Sheesh. Thanks to Ziha, Hawa, Dila, Tira and few others that keep me content up till this point.